|Posted on May 31, 2018 at 4:55 PM|
I really don’t even know how to begin this post. My oldest son is graduating tomorrow from high school. I am so proud of him and I’m excited about his future. I must admit though I keep thinking this child is graduating and I feel his Dad should be here. So, on top of the regular emotions that come with a child graduating and preparing to leave “the nest”, I have all of these other feelings along with that. For example, how proud my late husband would be, how he would be the one screaming the loudest when they call out our son’s name, how he would assist me in making college decisions for our son. So many other thoughts and emotions to list here.
Yesterday all of these thoughts and emotions came rolling out of my eyes. All along I’ve been keeping it in, putting on a strong front, you know the drill. But seriously, this makes my heart hurt. I know God has a plan and He makes no mistakes. Although I know that it doesn’t make it any easier. I realize there are some things I won’t understand until I get to Heaven. I’m sure I’ll have many more moments, (my Sister has already said she will tissues available for me at his graduation, LOL) and that’s okay because I’m human. I’ll have my moment(s) and then keep on moving.
It’s amazing how we can have such happy moment(s) and yet there is some sadness there. Simply because his presence is missed. I want you all to know that I am one proud mother. My son has overcome so many obstacles, ones that I feel he shouldn’t have even had to deal with at 15. But God strengthened him to make it through and I know He will continue to give him strength for the journey.
Son, if you read this, I want you to know how amazing you are. You have grown into a wonderful young man. Is there another word for proud? Hmm, let’s see, well-pleased, glad, happy, delighted, overjoyed…. You get the drift. That’s how I feel about you and I know your Dad does too.
“Always strive for greatness!”
The late Pastor Ronald Shaw Jr.